Saturday, November 27, 2010
the scope of things.
i think i had forgotten an important word this year - PATIENCE
i feel like i have lost track on the scope of things. i have been trying to rush every single aspect of my life. perhaps when i graduated earlier this year, i was overly excited on what's to come. after all, when i was younger, i dreamt of this day - the day where i no longer have to study; and the day where i can finally live my life.
i'll get to decide my own future. i'll get to create my own future. i would finally be in control of my life! so i thought.
i wanted to skip steps. i wanted things to happen, and to happen quick. i felt like i had no time to wait for things to develop. everything just HAD to happen immediately. very Gen Y, some would say. but after all, Gen Y kids have been brought up this way. everything is instant. instant food, instant messaging, instant money, instant fame, instant technology etc... and i'm no different.
and now i look around me, and the situation in which i'm in, and it finally struck me...
i need to be PATIENT.
why was i rushing in the first place? i was completely ignoring the present, concentrating on what's to come. why am i rushing to finish my life? life is short enough and i should be enjoying it!
now, i can choose to think of this year as 1) a year wasted where everything went wrong, or 2) a year well-spent, for i finally know what i should be doing to live a more fulfilling life. i'll choose the latter.
i have to stop and pause for a moment, and see the bigger scope of things.
i hope you'll hear me out when you're ready. i'm truly sorry for all that i've caused. no doubt, i've been selfish. but things that have happened cannot be changed, all i know is that i'm ready to be a better person.
sarah. |
1:57 PM
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